Monday, August 25, 2008


I hate being someone that complains all of the time. I hate being discontent with what life throws at me - or doesn't. I hate not being appreciative of what I do have.

With that being said, I'll go ahead and write with the very attitude I loathe having.

I don't want to grow up. Bottom line. I liked where I was about six months ago. Let's just stay there, yeah? I'm working. I'm realizing what it's like to not have money when you really do need it. I'm realizing what it's like to have responsibilities and priority shifts. And quite honestly, it sucks.

I'm very excited to start Merle Norman. Incredibly excited. Good pay, great hours, and a nice atmosphere. Here's what I don't like; Having to turn down an opportunity to join my best friend in Orlando for Rock the Universe because "I have to work." Let me tell you - that is hard. And I can only imagine how many more exciting things I will have to turn down because I'm working. Sure, in the end I'll be happy - I'll have a paycheck. But for right now, I'm basically mad at the world. I'm praying, though. I really am. I'm desiring an attitude of complacency and acceptance. But it still doesn't change the fact that it sucks. And I think God's okay with that.

God knows when we don't like things. He already knows it. And He desires to know us. He wants us to be honest with Him. Communicate with Him. Honestly, I truly believe that the absolute best way to strengthen your relationship with Father is to tell Him exactly how you feel, all the time. Express things to Him. Talk to Him. And then ask Him how HE can work in it and ultimately bring glory to Himself from it. But seriously, God knows our hearts, so we might as well just express everything to Him.

And when you have an attitude like THAT, where you know your circumstance sucks yet you're willing to accept it and get over it, that is pleasing to our Father. And I want nothing more than to please Him.

Yep, Rock the Universe sounds amazing. I'd probably give up a lot to be able to go.
But I'm not willing to give up my job. God said "Grow up, Kristi". So I guess I need to do just that.

I love my Father.

I really hope Madre ends up going to Orlando with me soon.
I might pull my hair out.
Or just write another blog to complain.

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