Monday, September 22, 2008

Everything Is Changing

I’m trying to follow
I’m trying my best to do what you said
But what about tomorrow?
Are you sure I’m not in over my head?

Everything is changing all around me
Is this the ending of a dream?
I thought I was doing what you wanted
It isn’t as easy as it seemed

I’m losing my vision
I’m fighting the doubting with all that I am
It’s been awhile since you last gave me something
To go on
Tell me it’s not the end

It seemed like I did everything right
Now I see that it’s all wrong
Do you want me to move on?
Can you tell me where I belong?

-JJ Heller

In a moment's time, God can give you everything.
And in a split second, He's perfectly capable of taking it all away.
He never does it for the wrong reasons.
God can't do anything for the wrong reasons.
Insecurity is getting the best of me.
But God's so much bigger. SO much bigger.
Big actually isn't even a word that comes close to describing Him.

I wish everybody could have the peace I have. It's the most beautiful feeling in the world.

The future scares me, honestly.

I don't want to be like the world.
I don't want to be like everything I am against.
I don't want to be a hypocrite.
I don't want to be wrong.
I want God's heart.
I want His will.
God, I plead you show me your will.

I'm only 17.

I really wish I worked tomorrow. I need something to keep me busy.
I'm pretty sure I'll pull my hair out staying at the house...alone...doing nothing.


Joseph said...
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Joseph said...

In this you greatly rejoice, even though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been distressed by various trials, so that the proof of your faith, being more precious than gold which is perishable, even though tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ; and though you have not seen Him, you love Him, and though you do not see Him now, but believe in Him, you greatly rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory, obtaining as the outcome of your faith the salvation of your souls.

"...and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age."

Kristi said...

"And lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age"

I have that verse painted on my wall.

Thank you, Joe.