Wednesday, September 24, 2008

I've found myself being ministered to by music now more than ever. I put Dalton in today. It's been a long time. And this is how God spoke;

Are you living in this moment?
Will you find the answers of yesterday?
Will you live your life in question?
Is it gunna take you?
Will it make or break you?

Don't waste your time
Living life afraid
Wondering what you've made
Dont' waste your life
Looking for the wrong mistakes
Mistakes you can't erase

Failure is a place that's missing
Like a city with no life
Chances need for you to take them
They will make you
They will break you

Go to church when you don't want to.

I'll be honest, I'm just sad.
I can't puff myself up like I've got everything in my life together. I talked to Mrs. Jenny today. It was so nice to just talk with her. I expressed to her my complete new-found fear of the future. I'm just scared. Petrified would be more like it. I'm not secure. I don't know where I'm going. I'm literally walking in a blind faith. And as much as I know I need it, and it's the season God's placed in my life, I'm scared as all get out and really don't know how to handle it. I feel like at any given moment I'm going to break down in an anxiety attack. Life's just moving so fast all of the sudden. Everything feels like it's changing. Choices are being made. People are turning. Everything is different out of nowhere.

Praise, my soul, my Father is the same today as He was yesterday.
Thank you, God, for never changing.

Rely, rely.

I'm not going to write again until I can actually write about something edifying.

Choris Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last, between

And I'm praying that we will see
Something there in between
Then and there that exceeds all we can dream

And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between
And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between

1 comment:

the_art_of_letting_go said...

ahh love the flyleaf lyrics.