Last night was the very first Honduras meeting, and it has just gotten me so pumped up for the trip! I will leave on the 25th of July and come back the 31st. There are a few familiar faces from last year, and many new names to learn. I probably teared up two or three times just during the meeting, thinking back to the best week of my life last summer. God has placed Honduras as such a special place in my heart, my words couldn't describe how burdened I really am for it and for ministry there. I know God has big plans for me this year in Honduras, and I cannot wait to see the MAJOR impact He makes in my life using this trip.
I need to be prepared. I need to be prepared not only for Honduras, but for life as a woman of God. I need to be prepared for relationships in Christ, for eventually marriage in Christ. Something just hit me today and I realized I've been wasting so much time and effort on things completely opposite of Jesus. That has to stop.
I feel pressed to stop listening to music in my car, and allow either God's word (on audio) or sermons to enter my ears and circulate my mind as I drive. I always make excuses of being too busy to pick up my Bible or spend some time in the secret place. Well, I spend a lot of time in my car throughout the week and I tend to waste it on listening to music, being lost in my own worldly thoughts and worries. I'm going to be taking that time in my car every day, up until Honduras, to prepare my heart for Jesus and spend time with Him by either A)listening to my Bible on Audio, B)listening to sermons, or C)praying. I will be taking all of my CDs out of my car and storing them away in my room until after I return from Honduras (and maybe God will speak to me and cause this to be a longer situation). This isn't being done in religious work but it's coming from a heart that needs Jesus more than a few minutes a day, and needs power in those times I'm wasting on other things. I know that I've had some of the most beautiful moments of worship in my car, and look forward to the next few months of that.
I will say, however, that when Sadie comes back (June 1-12) I will take that time to make an exception. I will listen to music in the car while she is here, but my "fast", you could call it, will start back up again on the drive back from dropping her off at the airport.
I've been downloading a lot of sermons lately and am excited to see how God uses these next couple of months to speak to me through the moments in the day I'm choosing to give to Him.
PS I have also been seriously contemplating getting a tattoo for some time. For those of you who know me, the irony of it all is that I want one of my foot (for those of you who do not know me, I cannot handle having my feet touched). I wanted something that represented Christ, and after a lot of time to think about it, I've decided that I would want "How beautiful are the feet of those that bring the good news" flowing across my foot. A big part of me wants it in Spanish, as somewhat of a remembrance of the impact that Honduras has on my heart. A small part of me is considering having it on one foot in English, and another in Spanish.
Though I am 18 and can legally get a tattoo, I want to respect my mom and my dad while living in their house. So, I must first pass this by them (I think I may have already started winning over my mom). Also, Nanna, I love you even though I know you'll be furious when you read this.
I'm aware of the opposition I would receive from a lot of family and from other Christians. I know what Leviticus says (although that famous verse is not speaking against tattoos in general, but against tattoos as a form of worship of the dead...read it. Also, we are not under the old law any longer, but under grace and the new law which is to love God and love others). I fully believe that a tattoo itself is not a sin, but the intentions and purpose of it can be. Anything done of selfish intent is sin, tattoo or not. I want whatever I have on my body to indicate that I am of Christ, have died to myself and am living in Him. I've heard that tattoos are "worldly", but how is permanently inking your body with the very word of God in any way worldly?
I'll continue to pray about it, but it is something I'm very passionate about doing. We shall see. I would really like it done before I go to Honduras.