I feel as though I always have a heart break to worry about...
Or rather, to blog about.
It's such a reoccurring thing for me. Meet guy. Put my guard up. Finally have him and others convince me he's worth my time. Guy leaves.
Except this time he didn't just leave. He didn't do anything at all...except for his ex girlfriend.
I'm tired of the same routine. And I'm sick of every body's advice. Because all of it is completely different. Everybody wants to tell me how to go about my "love life". They all think they know exactly what they're talking about because they have "been there". But honestly, no they haven't. They've NEVER been there because they aren't me. They have never been in the exact same situation with the exact same person and the exact same feelings and the exact same circumstances. So no, they've never been there and never will. This is the advice I get;
"Stop looking for love Kristi. You just need to take a break for now. Don't date anybody. Be single, keep your guard up. Stop trusting every guy that walks into your life. Stop falling for it, and you won't get hurt. "
Or rather, to blog about.
It's such a reoccurring thing for me. Meet guy. Put my guard up. Finally have him and others convince me he's worth my time. Guy leaves.
Except this time he didn't just leave. He didn't do anything at all...except for his ex girlfriend.
I'm tired of the same routine. And I'm sick of every body's advice. Because all of it is completely different. Everybody wants to tell me how to go about my "love life". They all think they know exactly what they're talking about because they have "been there". But honestly, no they haven't. They've NEVER been there because they aren't me. They have never been in the exact same situation with the exact same person and the exact same feelings and the exact same circumstances. So no, they've never been there and never will. This is the advice I get;
"Stop looking for love Kristi. You just need to take a break for now. Don't date anybody. Be single, keep your guard up. Stop trusting every guy that walks into your life. Stop falling for it, and you won't get hurt. "
OR
"Putting up a guard is no way to live your life. You have to take opportunities and use them as experiences. Stop distrusting all men. If you get hurt, so be it. It's part of life and you have to accept it and keep going. Take your chances. You could pass up something wonderful."
I would dare to admit that both of those pieces of advice sound absolutely perfect. Unfortunately they are completely opposite and I have no idea which to take. So I'm taking my own; though I have no idea what my own really even is. I'm just taking it. I'm sick of advice and opinions. Because nobody can ever agree on one thing. Nobody can help me when everybody is helping me.
I feel a bit alone today. I know I'm not. I know I'm never alone. But I feel it.
I'm going to attempt to start blogging again. Who knows how long it will last this time. I feel like the prodigal son with my blog...
Funny I mention that.
I feel a bit alone today. I know I'm not. I know I'm never alone. But I feel it.
I'm going to attempt to start blogging again. Who knows how long it will last this time. I feel like the prodigal son with my blog...
Funny I mention that.
Until next time...
(or my next heart break)
(or my next heart break)
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